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Prayer to Saraswati – Goddess of Expression, Wisdom, and Freedom

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Saraswati Ma, your airy presence of inspiration
Is so dear and familiar to me
I think we have been friends over eaons

And yet you always find ways
To surprise me with new images and words
Your sign today shook me to the core of my bones

Yes, you are right, I feel as naked as
A tree in winter without leaves
No chance to hide behind a green veil of leaves

I feel as exposed as this naked walnut tree
No protection against cold winter winds
Trembling in the bones of her trunk and boughs

And still you ask me to speak and raise my voice
Make myself heard in all this winter nakedness
As if cold winter winds of judgement didn’t exist

Saraswati Ma, grant me with your support
Maybe some mice in the rootstock
Keeping my roots warm and alive
Maybe some squirrels in my trunk’s knotholes
Keeping me connected to the eternal heartbeat
Maybe some blackbirds singing on swinging boughs
Keeping the melody of life in my memory
When giddiness threatens to overwhelm me
When frozeness seems to be the sole reality
When Mother Earth becomes an abstract concept

Hold me, Saraswati Ma, in your love
I am falling, falling, falling

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Proud of You

Dear Courageous Soul,

blau_violett_fuenf_stern_blumeLast night your darkest shadow showed up. In tears you tell me how dark you feel, how bad, how completly wrong.

I smile at you and tell you that I am so proud of you.

What a break through! You were able to contain and embody your deepest fear, your darkest shadow, your most feared aspect. And you are conscious of it!

Yes, I know this immense shame that shows up “the day after”. I love you for your shadow and your shame. Your shame tells me that you want to bring to the world the complete opposite of what you did yesterday. It shows me your huge intention to be of service for a better world.

The fact that your deepest shadow showed up tells me that you are able to contain strong strong energies. It tells me that you are willing to go for the real deal and to grow into the biggest version of you. It tells me that you have freed up the energy that had been bound by this shadow. It tells me that you are ready to take the next powerful step in your life.

May you see that you are perfect as you are. May you feel “right” with your darkest as well as your most shining parts. This is how Life wants to express itself through you. Yesterday you didn’t hesitate to be of service to the collective to embody this shadow that no-one wants to see or feel or express. You volunteered to express it, to be a channel for this energy that is so often denied and closed into the underworld.

I am proud of you. I am grateful that you did this job. I bow to you that you brought awareness and consciousness to the human shadow.

You are truly a courageous soul. The world needs more of your kind.

I am so proud of you.
Uli – your soul sister